After my morning meditation yesterday, I felt drawn to a specific chapter in the book, So Be It, A Conversation With Angels. This book is one of two, that started me on this spiritual journey and from time to time I still find myself learning from them.
Having already read the book, somehow what I read yesterday seemed new to me and caused me to question something I thought I knew the answer to. I realize now, the universe has a funny sense of humor and wanted to get my full attention – although I wasn’t appreciating it at the time.
After throwing my hands up and saying, “That’s it! I’m thoroughly confused as to what you want me to do, I cannot control this, I’m done!” – within minutes I felt this light peaceful feeling come over me. It came from letting go – just not worrying or caring if I was making the right choices anymore. Letting go and trusting the universe to send me what I want in my life.
I did have a brief moment of questioning again at the end of the day – (my mind trying to take back control) but it ended as quickly as it came. I found myself lowering some walls I constructed in my mind, built to protect me - but realized, were actually keeping me stagnant and preventing what I want.
No, my situation has not miraculously been resolved overnight. But the release from the constant worrying about what direction I’m heading in and who will be there with me has stopped. So far today, I feel the same calmness and I’m enjoying the peace of mind.
I mentioned in a previous post that I felt as if my journey was like driving down a scenic road – I still feel that way, the only difference now is that I learned when you’re tired there is nothing wrong with turning on the cruise control for a while.